Hello all, my name is Sillum (he/him). I have two passions in life: music and dolls. Technically three if you count my love and devotion for my partners. Now regarding the dolls, I primarily enjoy playline fashion dolls, partially because that's what I can afford but also partially because I love the sociological implications of them. I love seeing how creativity and attention to detail intersect with what executives think children will like and enjoy. The tension between those things is fascinating to me. I'll take an updated picture of my doll shelf later today, or at least pictures of all my dolls that I will post here. I recently got a Monster Ball Clawdeen and I'm incredibly thrilled with her. I've wanted her for months. I love a good suit, almost as much as I love poofy dresses. Also I do adore mildly butch vibes, I think they're fun.
Another one of my passions is egl fashion and I really enjoy the femboy aesthetic. As a feminine trans man, I find it to be remarkably freeing to re-explore femininity on my own terms.
I'm finally able to attend classes now that we've changed our major. I'm much more excited about our new major than I was about our old one. The old one stressed me out to the point that I couldn't do any work. Also we finally started some anti-anxiety medication and oh my god. It is a night and day difference. Our anxiety used to be around a 6-7 on average, with 10 being a panic attack and 1 being the calmest you can possibly be. Day 2 on anxiety medicine and I feel like I'm at about a 3 right now. It's incredible. I almost feel robbed that I never felt this calm before now. However, better late than never I suppose.
Another thing about me is that I tend to be more introverted than the rest of the system, but also more empathetic.